Everyone I know was, is, or is going to be in a relationship. Well, except for me. So I sit and watch romantic movies, Disney movies, read romantic books... and wonder when I am going to find someone. Or, more often, if I'm going to find someone and why I haven't found someone already. I wonder why everyone has had five or six relationships and I haven't even gotten close to one.
There are many possible reasons.
1) I am too weird and awkward.
2) I am not conventionally pretty enough.
3) I am not experienced enough.
Or the most likely,
4) I am too specific in what I want in a boyfriend and not daring enough.
At the beginning of last year, I went to Homecoming with someone that I wasn't interested in at all because I thought that going with someone spontaneously might be what I needed to do to get a boyfriend. I might grow to like him. In the end, i ended up hurting his feelings because I couldn't bring myself to dance with someone I didn't like.
After that one night, I decided that I had to go out with someone that I liked for sure. Well, the first opportunity that year, I never even came close to telling, and he probably barely knew I existed anyway. After him, one guy told me he liked me, but I had no feelings for him whatsoever, I sort of became mean to him after he told me, and he probably doesn't like me anymore. And the third guy was my best friend, so that was a bad idea to begin with.
I had one real opportunity to be with someone -- the guy that liked me -- and I just ignored it. Should I have gone for that? Now, I wonder if I should have. He's a really cool person, and he's really nice. After all, being with someone is just another kind of friendship....
What is a more terrible thing to do-- to tell someone no, or to tell someone yes without really meaning it?
My father keeps telling me that high school is my chance to be in relationships that aren't serious. Is there something wrong with me that I've never been on a date, never kissed anyone, never asked for someone's number? Or is it just the small selection of guys? Do I intimidate them?
My question is: Should I wait, or should I just go and find someone? (pretending that I would know how to)
I'll get back to you when I find the answer.
There are many possible reasons.
1) I am too weird and awkward.
2) I am not conventionally pretty enough.
3) I am not experienced enough.
Or the most likely,
4) I am too specific in what I want in a boyfriend and not daring enough.
At the beginning of last year, I went to Homecoming with someone that I wasn't interested in at all because I thought that going with someone spontaneously might be what I needed to do to get a boyfriend. I might grow to like him. In the end, i ended up hurting his feelings because I couldn't bring myself to dance with someone I didn't like.
After that one night, I decided that I had to go out with someone that I liked for sure. Well, the first opportunity that year, I never even came close to telling, and he probably barely knew I existed anyway. After him, one guy told me he liked me, but I had no feelings for him whatsoever, I sort of became mean to him after he told me, and he probably doesn't like me anymore. And the third guy was my best friend, so that was a bad idea to begin with.
I had one real opportunity to be with someone -- the guy that liked me -- and I just ignored it. Should I have gone for that? Now, I wonder if I should have. He's a really cool person, and he's really nice. After all, being with someone is just another kind of friendship....
What is a more terrible thing to do-- to tell someone no, or to tell someone yes without really meaning it?
My father keeps telling me that high school is my chance to be in relationships that aren't serious. Is there something wrong with me that I've never been on a date, never kissed anyone, never asked for someone's number? Or is it just the small selection of guys? Do I intimidate them?
My question is: Should I wait, or should I just go and find someone? (pretending that I would know how to)
I'll get back to you when I find the answer.