Ok, I know not all guys are the same, but lately I can't help but feel it. I know so many guys that like more than one girl and it bothers me so much. For example, the guy I like, Tom, is extremely conflicted because he says he likes two girls and he doesn't know which one he likes more (I'm not either of these girls, btw). Another guy, named Finn, liked (likes) me, but I'm aware he still likes other girls. Even when he was dating someone he liked other girls. His friend, Richard, likes about three girls, too. Their other friend, Mark, likes around five girls.
I mean... do they really expect girls to date them when those girls know how many chicks they like? I've only liked one guy for the past 2 years. I don't think it's that hard to do. As in, liking one person for a short (or long) amount of time. It's so annoying. That's why I can't trust guys a lot of the time. I don't want to date someone who is secretly checking out or flirting with someone else. What kind of basis for a relationship is that anyways?
I want a guy who is honest and loyal. I want someone who cares more about me than the girl with a "nice rack" or "sexy lips". I can't go into a relationship knowing I'm not the only girl on his mind. It's not fair to me, or to him, really.
Anyways, today Webster asked me why I haven't posted anything for a while and that's mostly because I've been busy and haven't really gathered my thoughts. I was in the middle of a move, catching up on school work, trying to catch up with friends, having family dilemmas, and it was all too much. Although, more than anything, I was sleep deprived. Today I somewhat got myself together, though. Kinda. Anyways...
I'm currently kind of sick of life. I'm sick of school and the homework, I'm sick of stupid drama with my peers, I'm sick of my family fighting all the time, I'm sick of my lack of sleep, I'm sick of trying to keep up with time, and I'm sick of the oppression of being a teenage girl. I want to be a woman, I want to be free, I want to make my own money, have my own car, buy my own food and clothes, do what I want. I've felt this way ever since I was young. I know I have it in me to take care of myself and others. I basically raised my brother, so how can I not be capable of it? I hate it when teachers treat us like we're children. I grew up in the real world, I've faced more battles than a child should, and I prospered through that shit. That's why I'm sick of life. I cannot stand this state of being... this naïve little world I'm forced to live in.
Maybe I sound really stupid, but I'm completely serious. I want to be something more than just this... And I know I have to work my way up just like everyone else but I feel that I've lived through way more than most of my friends and that because of this, I deserve to be just a little closer to adulthood. Maybe. Maybe not. In any case, you get the gist.
Well. There. I got out what I needed to get out, kind of. Til later,
Lizzie
I mean... do they really expect girls to date them when those girls know how many chicks they like? I've only liked one guy for the past 2 years. I don't think it's that hard to do. As in, liking one person for a short (or long) amount of time. It's so annoying. That's why I can't trust guys a lot of the time. I don't want to date someone who is secretly checking out or flirting with someone else. What kind of basis for a relationship is that anyways?
I want a guy who is honest and loyal. I want someone who cares more about me than the girl with a "nice rack" or "sexy lips". I can't go into a relationship knowing I'm not the only girl on his mind. It's not fair to me, or to him, really.
Anyways, today Webster asked me why I haven't posted anything for a while and that's mostly because I've been busy and haven't really gathered my thoughts. I was in the middle of a move, catching up on school work, trying to catch up with friends, having family dilemmas, and it was all too much. Although, more than anything, I was sleep deprived. Today I somewhat got myself together, though. Kinda. Anyways...
I'm currently kind of sick of life. I'm sick of school and the homework, I'm sick of stupid drama with my peers, I'm sick of my family fighting all the time, I'm sick of my lack of sleep, I'm sick of trying to keep up with time, and I'm sick of the oppression of being a teenage girl. I want to be a woman, I want to be free, I want to make my own money, have my own car, buy my own food and clothes, do what I want. I've felt this way ever since I was young. I know I have it in me to take care of myself and others. I basically raised my brother, so how can I not be capable of it? I hate it when teachers treat us like we're children. I grew up in the real world, I've faced more battles than a child should, and I prospered through that shit. That's why I'm sick of life. I cannot stand this state of being... this naïve little world I'm forced to live in.
Maybe I sound really stupid, but I'm completely serious. I want to be something more than just this... And I know I have to work my way up just like everyone else but I feel that I've lived through way more than most of my friends and that because of this, I deserve to be just a little closer to adulthood. Maybe. Maybe not. In any case, you get the gist.
Well. There. I got out what I needed to get out, kind of. Til later,
Lizzie