Yesterday I saw.... Ted. For the first time in a long time. It was really nice. We had a lot of fun and shared some good laughs. Something weird happened though - I got this feeling. I felt it before, this... strange, unnatural feeling. Where part of me thinks I'm... getting over him? Like I looked at him and thought, whoa. I like him? It felt weird. And not right... I don't know how to explain that part of it.
I think it may have something to do with not seeing him. Maybe I am creating some Ted in my head that doesn't exist. Don't get me wrong, I love him, he's my best friend - it's just..... I don't know. I wasn't that attracted to him very much (even though he is physically speaking, very attractive). Something wasn't there. Something I thought was there.
I feel like this feeling is going to go away soon and it'll be back to normal. I just... kind of wish this feeling would stay.
I think it may have something to do with not seeing him. Maybe I am creating some Ted in my head that doesn't exist. Don't get me wrong, I love him, he's my best friend - it's just..... I don't know. I wasn't that attracted to him very much (even though he is physically speaking, very attractive). Something wasn't there. Something I thought was there.
I feel like this feeling is going to go away soon and it'll be back to normal. I just... kind of wish this feeling would stay.