I am so tired. My head is banging on the right side, and this headache will NOT FUCKING GO AWAY.
Today I got pretty emotional. I was running around during break to try and print my paper, and as soon as I rush into class I'm late. After all the technical difficulties and annoying pink paper I ran into class, hair in my face, stuck under my bags and text books, and I just wanted to cry. And my teacher makes me stand there while he gives extra credit money to everyone else. . . but me. And I DID MY HOMEWORK IN PENCIL AGAIN! How do I forget these things?! So I only got 10 dollars for homework. Shitty shit shit. And when we were answering questions for extra credit money, every single one I had was taken by someone else. And every time I tried to answer something I got it wrong. The day got better and worse, and now I'm sore and tired and I have homework and my sister is coming in to town! Her, my niece, my nephew, and her two dogs! TONIGHT. I had plans this weekend that I now have to forget about because I have other obligations now. And this stupid boy finally remembered my birthday! WHAT IS HAPPENING. I just want someone to cuddle with me and hold me while I cry. I can't stand life lately. All I do is barely make the mark, barely passing a class, barely eating healthy, barely learning anything new, and I'm stuck. I'm hurt. I'm sleep deprived and insane all I can do is sit here and be happy for everyone else because society is like that. You can't ever truly express how you feel with out someone's concern or endless questions. God dammit, I just want to cry! I want Christmas and hot chocolate and warm blankets and someone I love. Is this too much to ask? I hate high school. I hate it so much. Ugh.
I hate pretending I'm satisfied and happy with life when I'm not. And I just want to runaway. But I can't.
Today I got pretty emotional. I was running around during break to try and print my paper, and as soon as I rush into class I'm late. After all the technical difficulties and annoying pink paper I ran into class, hair in my face, stuck under my bags and text books, and I just wanted to cry. And my teacher makes me stand there while he gives extra credit money to everyone else. . . but me. And I DID MY HOMEWORK IN PENCIL AGAIN! How do I forget these things?! So I only got 10 dollars for homework. Shitty shit shit. And when we were answering questions for extra credit money, every single one I had was taken by someone else. And every time I tried to answer something I got it wrong. The day got better and worse, and now I'm sore and tired and I have homework and my sister is coming in to town! Her, my niece, my nephew, and her two dogs! TONIGHT. I had plans this weekend that I now have to forget about because I have other obligations now. And this stupid boy finally remembered my birthday! WHAT IS HAPPENING. I just want someone to cuddle with me and hold me while I cry. I can't stand life lately. All I do is barely make the mark, barely passing a class, barely eating healthy, barely learning anything new, and I'm stuck. I'm hurt. I'm sleep deprived and insane all I can do is sit here and be happy for everyone else because society is like that. You can't ever truly express how you feel with out someone's concern or endless questions. God dammit, I just want to cry! I want Christmas and hot chocolate and warm blankets and someone I love. Is this too much to ask? I hate high school. I hate it so much. Ugh.
I hate pretending I'm satisfied and happy with life when I'm not. And I just want to runaway. But I can't.